hy there
id like to start with a apology for my bad english, my mothertounge is german
so to give my advice some weight i probably should give ya some insight in my live...
altought raised protectet in a working family in a small village in switzerland on a farm i got sexually abused for years from so called "uncels"
in my puberty i supressed it trought the heavy abuse of drugs, witch i only got rid of trought the lost of everbody i called a friend these times
im my early twenties i realysed what happend to my, it took another 10 years to acknolege that i have a problem and need help...
and 5 years later i still havent found my place in the world yet, but i got rid of my depressions witch i had almost all my live
im a smart old dude with ADHS, so this may not work for everybody
what helped my the most was to
inform myself about my problem
i needed to go to a doctor witch diagnosed my with ADHS, i got treadet with pills and stuff but i could only help myself
so i informed myself mostly in the internet* about my problem
there are a lot of very good TED Talks
i couldnt find the link to the one witch helped my a lot so i try to give you the keynote here
depressive thoughts leave over a long time "thinkpatterns" or riverbanks if you will, in your brain...
so think of these thougts like elektricity, they like to go the path with the least resistance
to break these patterns you have to think diffrent... its easier than it sounds like....
so evertime when you catch yourself thinking "i hate myself" or "i d like to kill myself" "im not worth it" "everbody hates my" etc... you stop that thougt and think of 3 things you apprechiate
small things like, weather, flowers, foods, games, this forum, whatever...
Its about not allowing to think the easy way, break the pattern... i dont now... what i know is that it worked for me... you may do this for a week deliberately, after a month you got rid of the depression completly
not constantly naging on yourself helps a lot, try to develop yourself further, always try to develope yourself further!!!
try to gain a little distance and assess your situation soberly
*im making this comment in a tec relatet forum so i hope i havent to mention, be critical and suspect about information from the internet....
>>Faith<< means not wanting to know what is true